Dear Little Princess...

I'm tired. -yawns- feel a bit disoriented after the blog-reading... like argh, u can feel a figure forming shape and size, character seeping into the body, doing the stuff it is supposed to be doing... all in my mind. I see, I visualise. Feel like I am almost her.

My words seem too incoherent and slurred.

I am drunk.

Yesterday, I went out with joanna, amanda, ling and huiyi. It was great to meet up with them! =) The moment amanda arrived, I couldn't stop laughing. She is still so adorable. She hasn't changed after a year. still so blur and arhh... what's the word to describe her... in a world of her own yet perfectly clear of whats going on around her. She's cute lah.

yar. so we didn't watch movie or whatever. We ate lunch and shopped around. I bought the white mango belt and Guess bag! -woohoo- Finally! -cheers- Yangsheng commented that the bag was nice today. haha. I would say it is funky and bimboish-looking but I lovee it anyway. duh. So according to Mayling, I became much happier and noisier after buying the bag. which is... quite true. hahaha. I really enjoy going out with them yeah. Even though it's all walking around, at least we interact and talk and laugh and joke... that's what gatherings are supposed to be about, u see. yup. I wish the dhschoir alumni can be set up successfully so that one day we can all go back and help.


Today... was a slack day for me. I woke up late. Basically, I refused to wake up until it's like twelve sth in the noon. Played my electone... I love the piece. so energnetic. cool arrangement but difficult. Rushed to meet the 2d peeps, as usual, was late. watched "meet the fockers". That movie was really not bad, horny but thought-provoking. The contrast between the goal-oriented, competitive attitude versus the passionate, down-to-earth perception... It's totally reflective of what's going on in this world. yeah. U can spend your life accomplishing mission after mission, then you realise, I miss the most important thing in my life... I don't know what my wife needs, why my daughter is keeping secrets from me. You realise you are EMPTY. I don't wanna spend my life like that. I know a lot of people will prob see me as that. Ambitious. Idealistic. Goal-driven.
But no.
No.
I hope I am not as hopeless as that. Of course, there is nothing wrong being determined and stuff, just not too wound up and caught up in the rat race. yeahs. I have to keep reminding myself that. Sometimes I feel like I will lose myself, cos' as much as I don't want to be over ambitious, it's still in me. Like... let's be honest yeahs. I want to get into student council or CT council. Then again, I can be so cowardly and 'act' scared, nervous, even though in my heart, I want it a lot. Take for example, the vj choir carolling audition... I was like niu niu ne ne, u know, being so hesitant and stuff.. yet there's just sth in me that glows brightly.... oh and it can even speak. It says, if u don't do it, you will live to regret. Go for it. And I did. I wonder, do I always have to be like that, being unsure and making a huge fuss before I take a risk.

Jeremy... He is not someone with excellent academic records or whatsoever. His courage... I seriously seriously admire. He is bent on going to poly although he could have easily made it to a top 5 jc. He's so clear of what he wants to do in his life. Not something glamorous or what, sth modest.. yet a PASSION. He plans to be financial advisor? sth like that for a few years to appease his mom before he sets out on the photography trail. cool. Seriously... If I ever tell anyone i really wanna be a full-time writer, pple will laugh their heads off.

How MUCH A WRITER WILL EARN, they will ask. NOT PRACTICAL, they will add.

so since I was very young, there has been this thought embedded that I will be a part-time writer. hee. Then I have been pushing the ageline when I will officially become a part-time writer. weird. but yesh, I did that. Now I consider myself a writer of some sorts, a self-fulfilment writer... a teenage writer... whatever u call it. I don't earn money. yesh. I earn pleasure and unbridled sense of accomplishment and happiness. i don't know... like the look on your friends when they appreciate your works and when they said very touching, very sad when it's supposed to be like. of cos, there are times when people don't really agree... makes me work harder, go over the stories again, so that i can spot my mistakes... yarh.

That's like the passionate side of me. and there's another... which wants glory, glam and status. yar. The management and marketing career is what I want cos' I am not such a vicious and bold person to be in the business world, yet I wanna do a 'people' job and serve and organise and lead. yar. Care. Serve. Lead. OH, dunman high... I realise dunman high taught me a lot. regardless of the old-fashioned nonsense, it is a good school cos' it trains you.
You don't get what you want.
It's like a replica of the society. yar. That develops the fighter spirit in you. =)

okay, back to gathering... went to swensen to eat. The guys, esp jeremy were making lot of comments over... okays, nvm. It was not very successful lah. How could the guys leave so abruptly... like that. I understand their need to leave but very rude indeed. I am planning to launch another 200 words on a certain somebody... but as much I CAN'T STAND HIM TO THE CORE, I love him (friends' kind la) too and can give ten reasons for each respective stand... so decided to let it go. -cheers- That's what friends are for. hahaha.

In the end, left me, mabel, cheryl and wuenyi walking around... yeahs. walked to orachard from dhoby gaunt. went to heeren to walk too... hahaha. Pure sianness. But again time spent with them is precious... gonna be split up into different schools. -boos- well, saw quite a no. of 2d peeps whom I haven't seen for ages... like melody... how i love that girl man. born leader, speaker.... she've got it all. yar. still had xiufen... huili... shimin.. so maybe it's not that bad after all.. -tada-

yeahs. I am feeling drained at this moment. did too much thinking... think think think. i think too much but do too little.


oh... OGL called. I am in Orion. Oracle. vollywood. mans, at least this is sth to show that my dreams aren'r just fantansies. =) I am going to be part of VJC at least for the first three months. -squeaks- yeah. I can do it. DREAM BIG. mustn't be afraid of that. -megawatt smile-



P.S I have HUGE PLANS for new year's eve. buy leehom' album. clear my room for goodness sake and watch tv, channel 54. hahaha. great, eh.

Dear Little Princess...

-smiles weakly- more bad news today. tsunami. more than 60 thousand people perished. i saw Mrs Tan (maths tcher from dhs) on the Chinese newspaper. She was interviewed along with her husband. Goodness, she was in Phuket when the tsunami struck. Thank God, she didn't set out to beach on that day. phew.

The juniors are doing a fab job with orientation preparation! all the photos and pins-up and banners... They even displayed the different kinds of costumes and t-shirts we had. as in hung them on a string... cool idea! I mean if I am a junior, I will be ATTRACTED! haha.cos' with all these furnishes, it seems as if the music room belongs to the choir solely. Got that sense of belonging. u can see the effort they put in, I am proud. ohhh. I was a lil' pissed as the meeting was delayed. yar. Then in the end, I only sat in for a few minutes. My mom was waiting for me in school and I need to rush for organ lesson. didn't talk much even when zhou chu prompted us. I couldn't even remember what I had told zc before. She was mentioning to the others about what I had told her about seniors coming back and interacting with the juniors like one family.. then asked me to continue to explain my view. I was like huh. I couldn't recall telling her that. I think my brain got problem. yar. Maybe I'm mad, u know. Few months of not talking, being opinionated and making speeches, I seem to have become dumb. as in dumb... can't talk. haha. nvr mind la. it's time for the juniors to shine. I am glad they voice out what they are unsure of the alumni thingy and not just listen quietly, obediently. ahhh. =)

ohh. u know... was reading biying's blog and I totally agree with her. I am not a very religious person, yeah. Not a staunch believer of any religion. yars. But I'll say a lil prayer for the people affected by the natural disaster. I told Joanna... all these are part of the life cycle. Even if the tsunami doesn't strike now, sth else will still come along later. It's saddening but there is nothing much we can do except praying and donating. It might be my turn, urs, his, hers to say goodbye to the world next. we never know. we might not perish in a natural disaster but we might die in a car accident, illness, or simply by sth that had dropped from a building. There is a season for everything. Natural disaster, SARS epidemic is just sth else to replace the many accidents, suicides that could have occured if the people survive. I know it sounds ugly but it's true. We all die utimately. The dead is already dead. I pray for them to always be in loving memory but I will PRAY HARDER for the friends and families who are still living to be STRONGER.

and a while ago... I was thinking about Christmas concerts.... u know, vj choir and band... both had xmas concerts. I hope they can donate part of their profits to the Tidal Wave Funds. It is Christmas time! The season of giving... sooo... it makes sense that they give a token of their sympathy to the peeps in need. yar. hope they are not keeping money for themselves. I will write a letter if there's a need, to the vj admin.

here are some pics I have taken with my camera phone. will upload to shutterfly when I receive other pics. yeahs.

Dear Little Princess...

Guess what? Today I was supposed to go shopping with my buddies. I was going to be kinda late. got anxious and other than that, was having cramps. Horrible cramps. I thought I would be fine after a while. okays, so I boarded the bus... It was then when my mind swivelled and I almost FAINTED. My vision became blurred and the whole world darkened before me. I was gripping the handlebars... body was getting weaker, slid down a lil, and grimacing... I was telling myself, I can't faint in the bus. No one can help me then. I alighted at the next stop in semi-conscious state. Mind you, I could barely see anything. I feel immensely proud now of my wits and the perserverance to fight the darkness enveloping me gradually. Usually when I faint, instantly, there would be a black-out. yar... the moment i sat at the bus-stop, i forced myself to regain consciousness... as in could really feel my body struggling. felt like vomitting, so took this plastic bag out, didn't wanna dirty public place. I called my mom to pick me up. She took me to the doc. I got a fright when I looked into the mirror in the clinic. I was like darn pale. My lips too... yucks. I couldn't imagine what would have happened if I insisted to stay on the bus. yar, and there went my shopping trip... I was really looking forward to it and hang out with my buddies. argh. horrid. feeling much better now, after taking the pills and an afternoon nap.

doing some kinda cd logbook. My sister keeps lending cds to her friends and they never return. irritating. Plus, I love to lend pple cds cos I love to share music with peeps. haha. seriously needs a system so that I can keep track. yeah yeah. But I am getting bored nowwww....

arghhh. I need to read... I started reading Doris Lessing's The Sweetest Dreams. It doesn't appeal to me, the style of writing. yar, I hope to finish that book though. Doris Lessing is quite a deep writer. I have learnt from books like "To Kill A Mockingbird", that sometimes, the language may not be one that is quite easy to read, but after completing, you realise it is definitely a prized and value-added story. yar. I wanna be well-read! hee.

The news... about tsunami in Indonesia, Thailand, India... I saw the mummies hugging the children, trying to wake them up... gosh. tugging my heartstrings. How could such a disaster happen just a few days after Christmas... Here I am, thinking about Mango belt, Guess watch and bag.. and there are the people, stranded, homeless, mourning in grief over the loss of their relatives.... God Bless them.

There is going be a meeting in dhs tmr. about setting up dhschoir alumni. woohoo~ I can get to see my juniors. I wonder how will the meeting go... Yar. Jerrold was telling me the other day about the few dhschoir anthems he has proposed to Miss Poh. They should have long done that. yeah. was trying so desperately last year and this year to get the point across to the other comm members and choir... yar, then again I was kinda over ambitious cos' we had a lotta things to handle at that time. u know, I really like Jerrold. He has a good rapport with the choir and I hope he will succeed! heez. u see ur juniors growing, maturing like eg, kimkeat... I am darn proud of him too... haha. I heard he was scared I would scold him for establishing a new choir blog. nah. I was just so glad! cos' the blog I set was done in a rush. I wanted to get a new one done for them but before I can get started, kk did it! so yar, glad that they at least continue this online info thingy.. seriously, u all gotta support the comm... and I think it's time for another dialogue session to mark the beginning of 2005! I heard of some ugly things... gotta clear them up, peeps.. yupps!

I miss contributing all sorts of ideas in dhschoir comm.
I miss being a secretary.
I miss being a sop in dhschoir.
I miss singing with dhschoir.
I miss teaching the sec ones.
I miss doing flag day with them.
I miss hanging out with seniors.
I miss getting teased.
I miss that feeling of yearning to see someone in choir.
I miss mixing ard with all sorts of cliques in choir.
I miss my laogong, my meis
I miss you you you you and you....!



we'reminoinamajorkindofway!!! -padadada-
I still remember k. I always do.

Dear Little Princess...

It's weird how fate is sometimes... I went tothe chatlog to check for cheiren and zhenhui's addresses. Zhenhui gave me last night but I forgot to write them down. Anyway, miraculously, I noticed an email address in the December chatlog. was feeling baffled since I haven't chat to the person for very long. -blinks- It was a message on 23rd December telling that he has changed his number and asking how i was and what he had been doing. I guess I have left my computer running thru the night, then in the morning, without checking, I switched off the comp, that's why I missed his message. No wonder when I sent xmas wishes to his old number, there was no reply. Now I know... hmmm. Just feeling spooked. hee.

Going out with Joanna later. I don't feel very well but ar, promised her.

Dear Little Princess...

I am always updating my blog at this kind of time.2.58AM. It makes it difficult for me to define today and tomorrow. oh whatever. I shall pretend it is now christmas day, 25 December, rather than 26 December. I have a lot to write about. I just revisited the Pablo Neruda's webiste and read his poems. It's beauiful. I feel like writing one too. A gift for myself and everyone else. hahaha. shall go take off my contact lens and brainstorm about what to focus on...I have a lil' idea. -grinz-






12. 45 pm 26 DEC


heyy... here I am again. I was too tired yesterday to continue writing. . Yesterday, I went for carolling. yeah. I love it! It was very fun! Jiayun smsed me to go to Ritz Carlton instead of Raffles to sing, in the morn, Mayling called me to join my original carolling group because there were not enough people. In fact there were only seventeen people for the first session. Mayling and I were the only sop ones. I could tell you that I was quite initimidated by it. I thought we were going to screw up the first session. You see, we stood in one row, so my voice was definitely going to be heard. duh. When we were about to sing 'o holy night, I was already thinking about the high di-vine, scared that I would be flat or sth. It turned out to be fine BUT the last di-vine when we were supposed to hold until the sc cut us off, I could hear myself singing out. eeewks. so I didn't hold till the end. I am still quite disturbedby it. Another one was the Gloria song, the glo.... part where we needed to repeat. I ran out of breath, could hear Mayling trying to sustain. haha. After the session, Mayling said she got no more voice left. arh. I was just glad it was over. We didn't sound fantastic but it felt very heartwarming. haha. cos' it was a small group then you could sense that the audience really appreciated you. ooh. That was when the spirit of christmas was at its peak. lala.

yeahh. I really enjoyed the second session at the hotel lobby. I had totally immersed into the "spreading good cheer" (heez) mood. We were rushing though. The year two beside me was mumbling under her breath, "They are just not following him la". It was until you see a slightly pissed face from Gabriel, and the deliberate movements of his arms before the choir took the timing more seriously. Then again, like I said, I was intoxicated and smiling like mad to the audience! Sheena said she like my expression and told me to keep it up! ^-^ She was watching us before she joined in later.

During the one hour break before the reunion session started, we were in the holding room playing cards and giving out xmas cards. yup yup. Gave xmas cards with choccies to pris and Grace, biying, mayling, suelynn and sheena. yeah~ received cards and sweets from sheena and chinglok. The piece of paper on chinglok was darn cute. Multi-functional. hee. Like what one of the vj guys was saying... in choir, you sing/play bridge/play barbie uno. hahaha. cos' Priscilla and I, the bridge dummies, were playing barbie UNO borrowed from Lucas. When Nelson kwei stepped in, he said, "Woah. like a gambling den." haha.

The last session blew me off. So many seniors joined us, even the Victoria Chorale peeps. Even Evelyn, Wenjie that batch... Evelyn still looks so pretty and sweet. I could hear powerful voices all around me. mans. The audience was in awe, you can tell. That kind of feeling, was very hard to describe. I just felt at that very juncture that I WANNA JOIN VJ CHOIR. No more self-bemoaning. It was like... I wanna be part of vj choir and I WILL be. Confidence surging through me... yea. Everyone was like blasting and I just gave it all the way. -tada-

yeah, it was a pity that i forgot to bring my camera. boo. So before leaving, the sopranos took a few photos together. yeah. Then Grace grabbed Priscilla and I to take pics with her at the hotel lobby where there was this huge xmas tree. yup. There was this Caucasian family... very cute. haha. The lady in emerald, I suppose, the mother, was asking us to take photo with her cos' she said she needed some cream. yeah. We were wearing cream gowns. She was enthusiastic, told us that her daughter carols too and even asked her daughter to sing one with us. heez. But her daughter, very bubbly and pretty, was too shy. heh heh. I actually took some pics with my phone. well, due to dear Grace... whose camera ran out of battery. I sent the pics to my email, but up till now still hadn't received yet. WEIRD. We borrowed camera from sheena later and went back to take some more pics. Hopefully, she will send us soon and I can upload the pics in the shutterfly album.

Grace wanted to go to Mango sales, so we tagged along. It turned out to be a mess. I was getting a bit of headache with the crowd. Oh I saw the belt I want! from 35 bucks to nineteen bucks! I didn't buy yet, cos' there wasn't the red one around. Then again, red is quite a tricky colour for a belt. Anyway, Pris went to meet her friend while Grace and I met up with Weilin and co at Marina Bay for dinner. I was feeling extra at first. haha. cos' only one dhs senior was there. At first Grace told me Ziyi and Kaiwen were there. then not that bad. But Ziyi went back first. boooo. so, there were eugene, shawn/sean?, calvin, weilin and a yr zero, Dennis. I almost flipped. They were quite nice la. Lame jokes, ghost experiences and pervertic stories about a tcher in vj, arguments between Grace and Calvin and weilin... hahaha. All I remember doing was laughing. I was never quite good at making small talk. ohhh. and they told us about the singapore idol experience. hahaha. The guys told us that Christopher wanted to compete with them or sth... who can reach higher... sth like tt? Then they thrashed him. hahaha. They were saying he was a loser cos' he wore calvin's shoes on the Red Carpet. His own shoes were too small for him... haha. After dinner, we walked backed to the Mrt station and the guys were singing and walking very slowly. Grace was pissed. hee.

That was yesterday.. This morn, I went for yoga lesson... right now, I am chilling at home. lalala. =) I read the lyrics for Boulevard of Broken Dreams. woah. have the ding-ding-ding inspiration... of intertwining some kinda xmas story... u know, being lonely on xmas day... then interpose the lyrics of the song in the story... woo. last night, I was already thinking of the diction, the description, the atmosphere of the story.. as in a mini-film playing in my head. Hope to get it ironed out before school reopens. =)


[...happiness... the quick profit of the impending loss.]

When I read that, I was like what the hell, how could Rilke, one of my fave poets be so pessimistic... Then again, it is true. It is very true.

Dear Little Princess...

woohoo! Merry Christmas! =) okays. Today I am ultra happy cos' it's xmas time!

I wanted to do some last minute xmas shopping before carolling, in the end, went with mom and sis to shop at Novena. bought an Adidas cardigan and a pair of Espirit cropped pants! yupp. Then I rushed to Ritz Carlton for carolling.

Maybe it's the festive season... I don't know. It just felt even more fun than yesterday's. I was there quite late. It turned out that less year twos joined us. There were Mabel, Serene and Baolin... The rest I didn't know. ohh... We got to hold candles today. I was afraid I would burn someone's hair or gown sleeves. heez. In between the songs, I would steal quick glances at my candle to make sure that it's steady and not slanted. It's like u sing, u move then it might just tilt to one side. hahaha. The hotel lobby session was quite okay, obviously we lacked the power we had on 23rd cos' there were less people. O'Holy night didn't sound as magnificient and convincing. I smiled less but I could remember the lyrics better. heez. ohh ohh! Huping, Rayrin, Weirui and Louis came to support! I didn't know anyone will respond to my smses. I loveeeee my juniors! Strangely, my heart thumped very fast when I realised the juniors were here. hahaha. called huping later. He commented that altos were a bit too soft, sopranos sounded nice... He added that the guys were better than the girls... haha. overll, it was quite nice. yars. and he was making those high-pitched screams over the phone... mans! I shall take revenge someday, scream back into his ear. muahahaha.

After the hotel lobby session, we went back to the holding room to play bridge. The year ones were playing. I was... LEARNING. Up till now, I am still quite blur about the game, despite Biying's explanation. haha. yar, the carolling sessions at the various restaurants were quite dismal. Not our singing but the audience... The first restaurant, I couldn't really see Jianhao. so had to move my head a lil' now and then... had to watch him if not I would rush. The first one wasn't that bad... hahaha. partly cos' my aunt and her husband... my sis, my bro and my baby cousin were there to support me! woohoo~!!! The second restaurant was when I started feeling that we weren't that appreciated. You can see it in their faces. I think the Caucasians like us more. haha. Maybe they are more generous in spirit and applause. Think of Fielding. okay, I am digressing. The third restaurant... we had to squeeze a lil' and I felt that we were better off shut up. hahaha. Maybe it's cos I focused my attention on a few PLAIN BORED COUNTENANCES. It seemed to them that we were disturbing their serene evening, then livening up the atmosphere. welll... I still enjoyed it, nevertheless. haha. I enjoy torturing those ppl who have no appreciation for music and the jolly choral singing. hahahas.


tagged along with donna and priscilla to the hotel room and changed... haha. Before we left, they were like throwing pillows and cushions and stuff at Gabriel, I suppose? couldn't see the face... didn't know choir peeps will have violent tendencies. I thought I was a pretty good exception.. Alas... haha. so yar. hugged the yr one girls, wished them merry xmas and there we went... They were staying overnight at there. cool eh. lucky fellas. =) It's quite sad actually that Donna and Priscilla won't be coming to vj for first three months. yeahh... Anyway, tmr's the last day for carolling.. and nelson kwei is conducting... I hope everything goes well. ^-^

Dear Little Princess

I am tired, yet HAPPY. Yesterday, I met up with Cheryl, Mabel and Wuenyi and then had dinner at Cafe Cartel. woah. Missed them a lot. Really happy to see them again. haha. Even made them set the first weekend after school reopens as another gathering. yupp... to share our experience of the oritentation next year. Four all of us end up in different schools... Cheryl in TP, Wuenyi in MJ and Mabel in TJ... and the three of them would be most prob changing ccas, actually 100 percent. dhsco eh. I am the stick in the mud girl. hahaa. I really love singing what... bleah. Actually, I have always thought that water sports are damn cool... heez.


Today, finally, I got to carol! at ritz carlton... The accoustics was fabulous. It's like ooh lala. It was not bad after all... just that lucas's emceeing was quite hilarious. hahaha. The moment he started talking, I would feel like laughing. in the good way. I think I should have breathed deeper, found my breathing quite disgusting, hence some of the higher notes were not well- anchored. Whatever it is, carolling was fun! It was quite disappointing that there was only one session today... I feel christmassy now. hahaha. Finally...

oh, and I realised there was this unanimous dislike for the tcher i/c? When the tcher gave some comments, I could hear the yr twos psst psst away... He said sth about beeping devices or whatever, then one girl said in irritation, " I think the only one that is really making noise is him."

That reminded me of the golden old days in dhs. I still remember once when Mrs Loke started handing out late forms while standing at the door. Later when the whole choir fell in, she said that one person rolled her eyes right in front of her, and was even her comm member. A few heads were turned towards me. Some of my frens were like..."Is you ar?" I was innocent k. heez. Even though I don't really feel comfortable in loke's presence, I can never ever muster the courage to roll eyes at her. Goodness, I was a prefect. hahaha. It turned out to be Pearlyn. Great move, girl. She is one who will really stand by her opinions. I thought I was quite a "gan ai gan hen" person... she can even portray those traits better than I. haha. oh mann. Why am I always raking up the past? miss dhs manz.. Though I like vj choir and the pple there, sometimes, u just can't help but feel a bit... extra. I am so glad that I have Donna for company today. =)

Caroling again tmr. hooray... oh, I am sunburnt. as in tanned. My mother kept nagging and nagging abt how ugly is tanned. She is darn irritating. I thought it looked quite healthy. wonder whether the pool opens tmr.... feel like swimming or going to gym. Christmas eve tmr... argh. I have to apologise to my frens for not sending the cards yet. I have written them. sorryy. Shall pen a few cards more for the carolling peeps. Thinking whether I should give card to mayling personally or send her. hahaha. arh. yesh. I ponder over the minuest details.


ookays. Happy Christmas Eve!!!





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Dear Little Princess...

hmmm. Today was pretty normal. went to the gym to work out with berdine close to two hours. wanted to swim after that, but I don't want to get burnt. My skin is already peeling. hahaha. Finished Nicholas Sparks's "The Guardian". It was not bad, the thriller part. So psychotic, the stupid man. of cos' these kind of american novels have their own beauty but I prefer ermm... those kinda stories that use abstract language and have a deeper content. Anyway, if anyone have any good reccomendations, pls tell me! I need sth to rejuvenate my soul.

yeahh~ I wrote x'mas cards too.. haven't finish yet. shall write again after I finish this entry. oh yar!! Guess what guess what? Leehom on tv just a while ago.. TVBS E-News. He doesn't look twenty-eight at all. He looks like he is twenty-five. I am serious. His new song was playing in the background when he was at the studio. It sounded quite cool. He was like a lil' kid, kinda playful.. and a bit shy, like don't know how to react to the hosts. ohhh.. and his half-past six Mandarin... haha.. I can't wait to have his album.

Yesterday, went to vj to get the choir gown. yupps. will be wearing jiayun's sis's gown... woohoo. The six girls... year zeros were like waiting in the toilet for Princess Grace. Yar. hahaha. feels quite nice... cos' u are starting to know more about the year zeros friends. That was the last day when the number of us would see each other before... *we wonder when* Huiyi is a bad influence... hahaha. She was psychoing Caroline not to go for carolling on X'mas day... mans. I will be so lonely... ahh. wait. still have Priscilla. I don't wanna feel out of place. I think Priscilla's idea of us, the yr zeros girls going out for lunch won't work out in the end. The carolling groups gather at diff time... hai.

today.. the 2d peeps went to wild wild wet. I missed it. saddd. but... Tml going out with mabel, cheryl and wuenyi.. Hooray. Missed them! yeahh. Organ lesson too... would clash with tmr's carolling.. so have to skip tmr's session as well.. BIG HAIZ. I wonder whether I should drop by raffles hotel, watch them perform and take the gown from Biying or should I just wait until thursday. hmmm. It will be so embarassing if i go there and support them instead of singing with them. u get what i mean. I don't think I will join them for the second slot. Very rushed and I would be all flustered. heez.

hmmm. I miss the psychedic peeps! Jessie, jien, px, yayan, yiting, lien! hahaha. miss their lameness and crappiness and the occasional gossip about Justin... hahahas. wanna meet them before school reopens. yeah. and I am trying to organise another 2D gathering... yupps.

got quite a few gatherings coming up... one with choir seniors. one with joanna and ber. Let's hope they work out.

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2D peeps, take our pick...

30 dec, 1 Jan or 2 Jan

watch movie.. and eat dinner! something like that. a gathering before we are scattered like grains of sand. ooh.





I loveeee Leehom~!


Heez. I sound like some ditzy bimbo.




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getting a lil' feverish... and lonely...

Hello. Goodbye. See u later.

Thank you. Sorry.

argh. Driving myself crazy.

Today's carolling sessions with the metrophilharmonic youth choir... was okay. Like I said, I saw many of the scores for the first time today. So those that I can catch the tune, I will sing-along. Those I can't, I will lip-synch and hey, I am doing a good job... put on that choir face and smile.. move to the songs. woohoo. and goodness... they have chinese version for a few of the carols. Nice move eh. aligns with the 'Learn Chinese' campaign.

oh. Just get to know from px that.... sungnian DIDN'T GET INTO VJ. what the hell. It's so damn unfair. I heard from Cheryl an eight-pointer without bonus in dhs, can't get into VJ as well. why is it so weird... so weird.

was toking to px. At first just wanna play with her... bluffed her that I am not posted to vj.. in the end, of cos told her the truth. She was feeling sad... cos' of this whole vj thing. Now that she has to make certain sacrifices like giving up TSD for band... and 3 subjects... can't quit band... made her ponder: Why did she try so hard to get into VJ in the first place? It makes me wonder... did we all want to go VJ for the SAKE of going VJ? Right now, I am suspicious even of myself. Sometimes I wish I am berdine la. as in u know... she's like definitely not on the artsy side... not exactly the science type too.. but belongs more to the science cos' she is good in Maths. The pluspoint is that she has no emotional attachment to erm... choir.. not that strong kinda thing. Remember... in one entry, I commented about how I felt sorry for people who have no definite passion. okays, I am eating my words now. -crunch- cos' at this very juncture, I envy them... Passion is sth that often traps people in dilemma. Without some kind of passion, you will be able to make decisons more rationally and not be tearing your head up over the thing u love and the thing u think u should do. The problem for me now is that both are my passion.... wahh. I realise I have been going on about this issue for two days. It's like imagine u are an employer, which appeals to u most when u are reading one's resume... a person who emerges from TSD, a subject that gives u an edge over many others in singapore. Vj is the only jc that offers it. OR someone who is from VJ choir. u might be going in ur head.. like oh... vj choir... that choir... read in somewhere.. gold olympian... but will it like IMPRESS you... like TADA, this is it, this is the person I need. I mean..'fess it, you will prefer the one with TSD right. I think so too.

At the rate that I am going, I seem to be like hmmm... deciding to forgo joining choir. well, it's easy to say, hard to do. Like what px said, that is when u pare off the emotions, that would be the choice. -scowls- THIS SUCKS.

that's all. I don't wanna continue anymore. It will be the same ol' stuff. I still have until Monday.

'Follow ur heart'...I don't where my heart lies with...

Dear Little Princess...

hmmm. The gathering today can be considered quite a success? haha. For once, quite a number of people turned up. of cos' there were usual gossips btw Yizhin and I. hee... and the teasing here and there. Cute. I think dress sense wise, Chong Ming changed quite a lot. haha. He used to be the Science geek, now far more trendy... hee. Benjamin more or less the same, a bit weird, looks like a stick. Huaming grew a lot vertically. He used to be this puny lil' guy in pri school. Lester didn't change much... haha. I didn't really talk to him too. Honchan is as adorable as ever. His "You didn't communicate with your sister" still can make me smile to myself. Anyway, we were talking about Benjamin's younger wayward sister and her atrocious acts when suddenly honchan popped this line in a very innocent and cute way. hahaha. Andrew is still a nice guy. On the way back, everyone was so quiet. Tired from the day... So my thoughts of cos wandered back to the PAE thing, I pushed it away for a few hours while I was enjoying myself with my friends. Then when it was all silent again, I thought of all the possibilities... Giving up to join choir and take up TSD... Appealing... blah blah... They were sprouting rapidly like some magical shoots, injecting me with even more confusion as it went on. I was like really keeping to myself. The moment I alighted from the train.. same station as Andrew... The first qns Andrew asked me was so how... TSD or Choir. I was like stunned for a moment. I simply poured everything out... frustration and everything. He was really nice. haha. cos he lives near the station so he waited with me for the bus and listened to my rantings before he walked home. Nice person. ar.. who can forget the birthday girl yizhen... =) It was really sweet of her to come all the way down juz to catch a movie with us. Happy Birthday Girl!

oh. What berdine told me really scares me man. okays, not scared, just the kinda better-dun-wanna-get-involved feeling. I can't stand my mom at times. Really... Wonder what she had said. I can already visualise in my head what it's going to be like. I know ber's mom. Her tone and everything... It's a good one for ber for informing me.. haha. best buddy ever. love ya... prepare me for the whatever that is ahead. haha.

I photocopied all the result slips, testimonials... even the New south Wales certs... haha. I was pretty proud of the certs I attained for English so might as well attach them. The problem now is I don't know whether to appeal or not to appeal. Feel like typing a sincere appeal letter too. Then again, I question myself... so what's the big deal of going to sciences? Initially, TSD and lits will be superb for me. TSD, I feel that it gives me an edge over the others if I take it. It's something... SPECIAL. Moreover, I have the passion for acting and stageworks. I love performing. haha. To take other subjects in Arts will be futile and not aligned to my UTIMATE AIM. So in my opinion might as well try to switch to the supposedly 'better' faculty. You get what I mean... Since I can't get the best from Arts, no pt staying there...might as well try to move over. HIGHLIGHT is that if i can forget about choir, I don't even need to be worrying over this... I will be happily taking lit and TSD next year. This is just pretty horrendous. Why can't TSD AND CHOIR exist together??? The thing to rejoice over is that whichever stream I am in, I still can get pursue management further on. hahaha. well... what I want now then is a fuller education that can aid me better on the track to the management and marketing career.

Choir... is choir that important to make me turn down a golden opportunity??? I don't know. I don't know. I am not even like a vj choir member yet. I might not pass the REAL auditions. ARGHHHH.


byeee... I am going to stop at this! eurghh!

Smsed joshua, prez from vj choir regarding the TSD-Choir thing.

Joshua: Hahaha. Yes... Unfortunately that is true. And for good reason. Both ccas, although TSD is also a subject, are pretty much full-time jobs. It's near impossible to take on both. In fact it is impossible. Hahaha.

wahh. To me, he sounds kinda sinister... The "hahaha" part. I am on the brink of tears cos it's IMPOSSIBLE to take on both. Great.

Dear Little Princess...

oh. Early in the morning... I was sleeping.. and smses about the jc I got into kept coming in. I was SO irritated that I finally woke up to check the posting results. Well, it's hard to describe my feeling now. It's like somewhere there but not yet there. The problem I visualised actually surfaced. At first, I thought I was finally over the arts, sciences affair. That I can peacefully take the physics lit econs maths combi if i got into vj. arghh. I got posted to vj arts!!! I don't mind arts in fact I wanted very much to go arts for tsd and literature. Was like what i said, considering to switch to arts fac when school reopens. However ever since sue lynn told me about the no-tsd thingy, I was quite relieved I put vj science as first choice after all since I won't want to take lit with hist or geog... I was, to a certain extent, quite confident that I could get in. It seems like this year the standard was raised. For sciences, I believe is partial 6. For arts, partial seven? woah. No more the seven to nine thingy. Anyway, now I am damn confused. Should I appeal to vj science? Should I stick to vj arts and take lit with geog? Should I give up choir and go for TSD? Should I just remain where I am and hmmm... pray that they allow TSD for choir members? This is pure madness. I am once again caught in the middle. Feel like crying cos' of the decision-making... arghh.

God loves playing tricks with me.

Dear Little Princess...

Finally, finally... I have completed personalising my blog layout. I am feeling exhausted. This html thing really takes up a lot of time. It's okay, it's okay. At least my blog seems prettier now. I am a bit sick of this pink blog layout. Was trying to create one on my own. I decided to postpone that first. hee=p

Today... was a boring day. did crunches, sit-ups, then went swimming. Went to hougang mall with berdine. *yawn* I was almost bored to tears. It was too late then to make a trip down to Bugis. hmmm.

I shall talk about Wednesday then. haha. I wrote an entry about it but disappeared? Anyway, there was carolling practice. We practised in our carolling groups. I would have kinda preferred to be in Jiayun's group to Gabriel the sc's group. cos' there are more year zeros in Jiayun's grp that I know... like huiyi, grace, caroline... Still, I enjoyed the practice. We sounded weird. okays, maybe it's me. haha. Before I went for prac... quarrelled with my mom. So it worsened my aching throat. yeah. But no excuses for myself... haha. I was really not familiar with In Duclei Jubilo. Right now, It's beginning to look like X'mas kept ringing in my head... I love that carol! so cute. oh... ling and bing's descant lines plaguing my mind too. Saturday is approaching... which is actually tommorow since I am typing this at three thirty am, making now Friday. I have yet memorised the lyrics of all the carols. oops. I am looking forward to Sat... some reunion practice. This means I most probably can get to see my grand dhs choir seniors. haha.

A piece of good/bad news was told to me by Sue lynn. In the bus, she was asking me about the subject combi I wish to take... blahblah. Then she said that choir members can't take up TSD because the timing clashes. arghh. It's exactly like vj band. The bad thing is that I can never have an opportunity to be immersed in the wonders of stageworks. I was seriously considering to switch to arts fac. The good thing is that I can be pulled out from the dilemma of picking the science and arts faculties. Well, utimately, all these will become clearer and distinct after ten am later. THE POSTING RESULTS. Firstly, I am not a vj choir member. Secondly, I am not in VJ and who knows, might not even get into vj. Lastly, I might be channelled into my second choice- vj arts, and bing bang boom, time to say goodbye to vj choir. If I am in arts, I will definitely want to take literature and TSD... I can't take hist or geog. I didn't study history and studied only geog elective in dhs. can't stand physical geog... All these are seemingly enveloped by question marks floating about in a thick layer of fog. I am serious. That's what appeared in my mind.

will be meeting up with my pri school mates later. I can't wait... actually, not very excited. I was looking forward more to the idea that I can shop... hahaha. retail therapy. Tml will be the last day before I got all tied up with carolling sessions. saturday and sunday, carolling with the metrophilharmonic choir at Esplanade. oooh. I will be LIP-SYNCHING. ((x Reason: They need me for the numbers. so bad rite. haha. I carolled with them last year. The new songs I had no choice but to lip-synch. 1. I do not have the new scores. 2. No more practices I was notified a few days ago about this carolling thingy. I seriously hope nobody I know hangs around there... It will be very embarassing. I feel rotten to lip-synch. haha. What to do...

My room is still very messy AND I have no new stories or poems to hand over. It will be very pathetic if I spend my vacation in vain... which looks like it.. arghh. NO! I can't be a useless bum and sealed my creative vault. zzzzz zzz zzuuu. have to feel the energy to write. Things are looking up for the electone lessons. I am so glad my teacher proceeded on to a new song. It's a classic, arranged differently with a samba feel. I like it. feel like playing it. The prev piece, Menuet, sucks. It's the arrangement actually. I just don't like it.

anyway... it's early... Four am plus. woohoo. aren't I great. I am nocturnal. Even Xinyi was offline. yah yah. I am going to look like a panda tml. >_<

Dear Little Princess

oh mans. It's like 4 am plus plus now... I couldn't get started on what I wanted to accomplish during the holidays simply cos' I need to clear out the old stuff before I can begin on a new journey... yeah. so continue tidying my room again today. It is still in a mess. Thanks to my half-hearted attempt. I don't what to keep for my sister... I toyed with the idea of seriously arranging all the notes and prelim papers neatly for her in another order and file. It will take up more time and effort. ahhh. I shall be a good sister. haha. I think I am really like what Josephine wrote in her testimonial for me that I am LAZY. REALLY LAZY. It's funny how one can have contrasting characteristics at one time.

sorry cheryl for not replying to ur msg. I was so caught up in reading blogs that I forgot. Anyway, the trip was pretty ANNOYING. mans. I think my mom shouldn't have organised it. She is such a scatterbrain and one who will make sweeping statements. For instance, in the itinerary, it was written clearly that only blah blah blah, would meals be provided. My mom told everyone else before the trip, that all meals would be provided except for the Genting day. So it got a lotta peeps confused including my mom herself becos' apparently she didn't read the itinerary properly and realised her folly today. Besides that, no one brought the itinerary even the tour guide who didn't even have the updated copy. so everything was quite messed up. The tour guide... erm. sucked. I think it was his responsibility to u know, at least tell us beforehand, that the tix weren't inclusive before we reached that particular place. It caused a lot of commotion. mans, you should have seen me. I feel like beating people up. I do have violent tendencies, mind you. argh. like u know, since we were there, might as well just spend a lil'more money and experience new stuff, culture and heritage. got on my nerves mans. The cameron highlands stop was... a cross between eeeewks and not bad. hahaha. The bad thing is it is so boring... I so wanted to go out after dinner and walk around... like we all did in Korea. breathe in the cool, damp air... but we couldn't in the end. The redeeming point was that I simply love the refreshing environment there... yuppp. It made me feel so peaceful. ohhh. not to forget the opulent blossoms around. yeah.

I think the Genting stop was still the best cos' it got us on a hyper note. For the adults, it's the casino. For the younger kids, it's the arcade, games, and the freedom to roam around without the parents. For me, it's definitely the shopping, though, it's such a pity that we arrived at Genting rather late, if not we could have had a ball of time at the outdoor theme park. Still, whenever I am at Genting, nothing beats the memories of the choir trip last year. It's like a permanent imprint or something. Things just flooded back to my mind. slept at like 4 plus am... That josephine kept pestering me to sleep in her room after all the chatting and the laughing in my room... haha. Her two brothers came over to our room to eat.. Then later his lil' bro... ah wee... was like telling us stories of his adventures that day and story of the feng shui master telling the the futures of the three of them. He is such an entertaining storyteller... but he can be quite Hollywood at times. hahaha.

The A'Famosa stay was not bad... The parade, the Indian show... The food was terrible though. okays, but our group got separated after we watched the parade. Some of them was led by the tour guide to eat again at the buffet room while the rest of us went ahead for the Red Indian show. The bungolows where we put up for the night were all right actually. just that the surroundings were rather pitch dark and some of us made a huge fuss out of nothing... hahaha. I stayed up late with my sis, josephine and his brothers until josephine's father shooed us to bed. haha. before sleeping, the three girls... we still continued chatting a while... mans. Josephine was still so mysterious about her true bf. heee. Anyway, I have found out who he is. so... hooray. =)

Lastly, there was a lot of opinions regarding the chewing gum thingy. ahh. A mountain out of a molehill... I still remember the fateful experience last year when I got my name recorded(together with huiyi and amanda), for bringing chewing gum into s'pore... hahaha. When we got onto the bus, the guys were laughing at us. Then I learnt from the guys that must put the gums in between the clothes and musn't store them in the original box package. yeah.. hehe. The three of us were ignorant then. A few adults were quite insistent that chewing gums could land u in serious trouble... they were probably thinking of jail. Teens like my sis, Josephine and I were like saying.. it's all right, it's all right... Our dear officers would be more worried about discovering weapons, drugs and stuff. As long as u don't leave them in the box, buy them by the bulk, it is fine. So a heated argument... there it went... I was of cos' aware of their concern but was pissed at the same time because of some rather class-conscious remarks. Damn embarassed too. like arghh. I am not a clean freak. I have a RECORD for attempting to bring chewing gums. "u shouldn't have done that cos' u are a dunman high kid, a vjcwannabe... " It was really embarassing cos' there were so many other people in the bus. I didn't want them to assume that I was like more high-class cos I was from a better school. Being in dunman high is sth that I am proud of, but definitely not sth I will boast about... It's like SO WHAT? so what if i was from dunman high... and it would affect my chances of getting into vj becos' of the chewing gums... I felt quite incredulous at that remark... I thought of a lot of spiteful, ugly stuff to retort back...i decided to curb my mouth... anyway, she is an elder and a wonderful, helpful, enthusiastic lady... That particular remark and a few others... woah.. really stung me. "The gum smell from your mouth" is another hilarious one. heehe. I think she might have some reservations about me hanging out with her daughter since she discovered about my rebellious streak... oooh. Maybe she would be worried that I would coerce her daughter to smuggle stuff and do bad things and got sentenced to 'bad girl' and kena kicked out of vj. oh mans, for a long time, I thought I was quite an obedient, 'guai', rule-abiding girl... Maybe I am wrong. hahaha.

I wouldn't call this trip fun just ENRICHING. hahaha. the discovery about the service industry... poor tour guide... although he is poor in communication and speech, he has to bear so many burdens himself... trying to please everyone isn't easy mans. I look forward to a challenging and tough job in hotel management in the future. Haha. At least I can gauge what to expect. Plastering a fake smile when you feel like punching the person in front of you. Another thing that I gained is of cos' how diverse everyone can be... I think I can write a page-long description about everyone in the group... can write something like a mini-essay. so exciting. don't be too shocked to see your chacteracter traits reflecting from some character in my books. hahaha. I am serious. Certain people can grasp my attention more, the loudest ones and the quietest ones... the extremes, I would label them as. I think the 'shiok' thing about a writer... is the power to filter, to translate and to exaggerate. It's like oooh... u know what, I totally agree with David Yeo. I read his idol blog about the passion part. Some people don't really have a passion in their lives... They spend their time doing what they should do, stuff they think they are good at, trekking in the path they think will bring them the status, the glory and the difference they believe they should carry IN ORDER TO be different(simply for the sake of it). I am glad that I am passionate about writing, singing and designing, concocting all sorts of weird ideas, then putting them together. Those are the stuff that I know ten years, twenty, forty, sixty years (provided i get to live that to that age) down the road, I will still be madly in love with. I think that's life.



"Most importantly, have a passion that will last, not just something that will disappear together with you when you leave this world..." -- David Yeo

Dear Little Princess

The session today with vj choir was truly enjoyable! yupps. We had sectional, learnt some carols before combining with the altos. It was a little stressful though to measure up to their standard. The sops' voices are like so crisp and clear. I wasn't born with a voice like theirs. haha. Honestly, they are blessed, and they can reach the high notes effortlessly. ^-^ I couldn't make it for the prac next wed. = ( That's the problem of overseas trip. I am going to miss my yoga lesson, organ lesson and now, the carolling practice. Of course, I have to learn the other songs at home and brush up the descant lines especially in "O' come all ye faithful". yeah yeah. Must tighten the notes. I don't wanna make a boo-boo. I simply adore the feeling of singing in choir... today the girls combined could already make me feel so hmmm... happy? haha. I can't wait for the whole choir combined session... tada.

Tommorow I am leaving for Malaysia. oh mans. Now I am dreading it. I shall just stash a few tops and two bottoms. Must learn how to be economical in packing. hehee. should have seen my luggage for the mere 5-day stay at Genting last year. Tmr shall do last min packing.. haha. pack in the evening. I never understand why people actually have to pack their stuff for overseas trip days ago. Even when I went to Japan and Korea(longer period of stay), I packed my stuff at the eleventh hour. oookays. I think I am just trying to glam up my bad habit. haha.

I am supposed to keep a short entry. yeah cos' I am getting tired. oooh. suddenly though of what to do... I shall bring my writing book along and complete the song fiction "Wind beneath My Wings". It has been hung with the sign "Under Construction" for ages. In fact, I have a lot of half-complete works. It's time to put the finishing touches to them. hmmm.

I wrote this like when I was preparing for O levels. the language was a bit rubbishy. It's the thought that counts k... hehe.

I just thought four years in dunman high is just like a staged show. Just that everything is impromptu. We can choose to liven up our chars or move away from the crowd, and dwell in solitude, in our own perfect little world. We at different times, play different roles, sometimes u are the leader, while other ocassions, u are the listener, the follower... There can't always be one leader. A leader must know when to step down and listen to what others have to say. anyway. that's sidetrack. Along this journey of putting up the show, u learn, u fall, u cry, u laugh. Every sheath of humanity was being draped over your tender and igonorant body, one by one. One by one. Then at times, you will recall. You will be willing to be drenched in your memories, the images unfolding... You become your own audience of this drama. Every character, every person u come across is significant in how the the plot will turn out. Then towards the end of the show... on graduation day... u look at your friends and teachers... how is it possible to tell them how u feel, to express your gratitude, to regale the tales in four years, to compact everything you have experienced with them into such little space? Have you even done so? say thank you to everyone u know in the school? No, you didn't. You couldn't. It was part of the show. No one said thank-you. But we all know. We do. In other little ways... The cuddles. The hugs. The jokes. The laughter. No one said thank-you. No. It was too cruel. Imagine: Thank you for these few years of friendship. It was like drawing a full-stop. A GIANT one. But deep in our hearts, we all know. We do. It is not mine, hers, his or yours. It is OUR SHOW. We are all involved, all in it together. Four years of stage-mates, it is suffice to understand that the definition of gratitude runs deep, that Thank-yous do not have to be pronounced or written, but can be felt with that pulsating amber muscle that is keeping u alive this very second as you are reading till u reach the end of the sentence. =)

Dear Little Princess...


hmmm. This is my first entry on this new blog! woohoo. haha. Today, I feel quite cheery and bored, a bit lethargic too. I did nothing much really. Continued reading the book, "The Pilot's Wife". Anyway, i feel like I am going to get water retention. urgh.

I typed an extract I particularly liked from the book. It was a story about this wife receiving the tragic news of the plane crash where her husband was the pilot and the mystery behind the cause of the crash...


The auto parts-store -look, Jack had once commented as they'd driven by.

Once commented. Had commented. Won't ecer comment again. The envelop of time, she thought, was starting in earnest to swallow her. But she wondered if she hadn't adjusted, however slightly to the concept of Jack's absence. The thought of his death, coming randomly on the tail of another thought-a memory of him, an image-didn't rock her quite as violently as it had done the day before. How quickly the mind accommodated itself, she thought, even in such tiny increments. Perhaps it was that after a series of shocks, the body acclimated itself, like being inoculated- each subsequent shock delivering less impact. Or possibly this momentarily benumbed state was only a lull- a cease-fire. How would she know? There had never been a rehearsal for any of this.

Yesterday, there was SI final showdown!!! It was really quite happening. The part where they arrived in car and motorcycle respectively was totally out of my expectations. I seriously didn't know SI was so significant that even the President and the First Lady would make the trip down to watch. oooh. I felt excited for the idols, like the adrenenaline was pulsating crazily. hee. I was a little disappointed with Sly's performance. His "It's my life" was terribly out of tune. I was wondering why the judges didn't make any noise at all. There were all praises for him. I read the vj choir peeps' blogs(hahaha) and discovered from Lucas's blog that they couldn't really hear it in the indoor stadium. oh wells. I was quite a Slyvester supporter despite his horrendous pronunciation, blah, blah, but while I was watching, strangely, I was hoping that Taufik would win cos' he deserved to win the title more. Anyway, Sly needs not worry cos his market value will definitely be higher than Taufik's. It was overall VERY ENTERTAINING. It got me crooning with them to "The Reason"... ahh. I jumped up and cheered when Taufik's name was announced. hahaha. I could hear cheers from my neighbours too. For a good cause, like what some people said, SI helped unite the people together. =) oh something else I must add, do u know that I am very jealous of the vj choir peeps??!!! If only I am a year older (like what jessie said) and in vj choir, gosh! They actually shared the make-up room with the idols, took photos with them, in close proximity less than a metre apart... while I was like so many miles away, stuck at home, lusting over them through the rectangular machine. (The word "lusting" is a bit disgusting.) Hope that i can get into vj choir next year and mediacorp will kindly organise SG idols and once again invite the choir to perform. yayee~ That will be part of my wishlist for 2005. heh heh. good idea.

Time to say hi to slumberland! oooh. Talking abt vj choir, I have carolling practice at vj tmr. lalala. That explains my ecstasy today... whee! I hope I won't embarass myself but will learn a lot from them. loveee singing... and that my aching throat will turn out better too. okayys. see ya.



hmmm. This afternoon while taking a nap, I suddenly recalled this.

we'reminorinamajorkindofway

dhschoir had been part of my life for four years. I used to be very troubled over how to do my job well as a comm member, how to get the choir develop a sense of belonging... but now all these seemed so vague and unfamiliar to me. Steffi told me, " I am better now. Got more used to choir..." I am so glad to hear that, and that she will continue keeping her promise. (sidetrack: she is even prettier than before now that she is darker. If I am a guy, I will melt.) Then must talk about something I am quite angry with too? The gift the comm (my batch) did for the choir... told dinghong, in fact the rest of the choir, that that was to help strengthen their bonds... The "ME TO YOU" board.. yesyes. That was the name. We spent a lot of effort on it. cheerios to Grace Zheng who sewed the pockets again and stuff. errr... I didn't see it hanging anywhere in the music room. I wonder where they stash it. irritating right. Maybe Dinghong forgot about it. Maybe Mrs Loke disallowed. whatever it is, I demand an explanation... muahaha.

No, I am serious.