I didn't really want to quote this but it is so tempting. Here goes:

"People tend to confuse their purpose (What do I love to do?), with their ideals (How am I comfortable behaving?), and their desired results(What can I achieve?)" [career counselor-Robin Hirschberg] Now get to work figuring out the truth about those foundation stones. Once you do that, develop a plan for getting them work together synergistically. -IS Magazine horoscope

ok, I know horoscopes aren't really the veritable pillars of inspiration and motivation most of the time. Reading this makes me feel a bit more optimistic. (: So all I need is SYNERGY. I guess everyone is made up of little disjointed black dots-it is a simple task, just like how we used to paly CONNECT-FOUR when we were young, we need to find the links to connect the vital parts of our make-up and in the process of doing so, some could be compromised. That how it works, isn't it? (; Now i just need some time to explore the ways to draw the line continuously.


Three little birds, sat on my window.And they told me I don't need to worry.

It seems like we did it on a whim. I was excited. It was roaring good excitement though. The few seconds just before your mouth is damp with the extremely spicy, palatable curry, you feel a teeny weeny fear of the gastronomic turbulence that will be induced in your stomach and tastebuds but then again you feel all perked up at the spingly delectation the food delivers right from your tastebuds and travels both upward and downwards to your brain and stomach respectively. Bliss. yes, I was also trying not to expose my real identity-a warrier of a sort, donning a shiny amour that can blind anyone standing near it-so proud and bold, but was actually gritting his teeth to keep himself from crumbling under the hefty weight of the investiture. We snooped around a bit and we were in the toilet with those undergrads. They were speaking-in a language we could fathom but not digest and it makes everything so exciting all over again-adding the next layer to the kueh lapis cake. I like things that I am foreign to. I want so much to pare them away and reach a definite core, a core of my definition.




Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Exactly, i shouldwork with what I have, than what I don't. It is summer. Lovely, bright summer. well I should have lovely, bright thoughts too.

oh well, I was talking to marie about some stuff( sam and marie prob also talked about it before i came online... (: ) I was rather astonished at how microscopic some people's views can get. It was crude and totally unnecessary. It is okay. I won't go around, branishing a knife. I am a peace-maker/lover. :D Working at Made with Love was tiring but interesting. okay, most of the time, I tried not to look
too stupid. I was new and really unfamiliar with the tools. I adore the moments when customers ask me for opinions like example how to choose the paper, what else they need, how they can go about scrap-booking... I would feel slightly, slightly flustered but at the same time, very pleased to share with them my whimsical notions. At the end of the day, jien and I could not suppress our shopoholic urges. We had to buy those pretty little things! While I had nothing to do in the shop, I would walk around, observe and conceptualise the piece I can do with a picture of the choir.

We had an event today at kbox cineleisure. The response wasn't fantastic but the instructors were really good. Their performance was so tight and awe-inspiring. haha. (: Other than that, I was trying hard not to fall asleep while manning the reception counter outside. hm! I can't wait to be free of work. My room needs some serious cleaning. :D

"Hey, can you imagine like ten years down the road... everytime we meet, we will be doing the caroline's poses?" (cringe) Abashed, we might be, but it will be very sweet to have some kind of shared memory, language, secret code among us ten years later...



I like the last picture! The words I have added... stupid blogger... makes most of the collages so unclear!

I was on esplanade stage a few hours ago, singing no man as a chorale chorister. It was different- I see my batch sops, almost of all of them except chia and miss weiling, streaming onto the stage- it seems like the yesteryears. I think I miss them a lot. yes, I THINK. (:

I guess after today, I feel very strongly that I want to remain in chorale. It is not that I have been thinking of leaving incessantly but there was somehow this unsettled feeling? Today was the turning point! HEY, I think I know all the names of chorale people already! :D That is an achievement alright. It felt very different singing in such a small choir especially when you have to be ten times more responsible for the sound you are producing. (At this juncture, I still can't get pei en's voice exam piece out of my head. It is so infectious! I am going to request for that song four years later! haha.)

Gim Seng complains," wah, so short! I feel like singing longer!"

I felt that too. ;) So in that case, it means I can't wait for In Song, our own vc concert. Let's hope there will be hustle and bustle occuring backstage, more camera-whoring with our section, friends, etc. haha, well, it won't be exactly the same as vj's. vc is an adult choir-we must be calm, collected, disciplined, organised, YES, and have nonsencial fun as well! :D hahaha. I feel so childish. I shall enjoy being that while I can. I shouldn't THINK too much. That is also equivalent to being hardworking and learning the other songs well. I am so high. what's wrong with me!

I was horrendously made fun of today. in the name of nonsenical fun la, huh. My shoe sole came off just like that- I didn't even realise, jj was guffawing away- juni decidedly helped me to get rid of the other shoe sole and my ugly black heels became sticky flats. I thought my shoes would disintegrate. My innocent question of whether those few chorale boys were from vs got it all started. uh huh. ;)

yeps and my pretty sops met us at the stage door reception area to celebrate pei en's birthday. (Her birthday is on thursday.) It's been a LONG TIME since so many of our batch sops were around! iheartsops. True friendship needs no affectation. :D Oh yes, VC has garnered rather good comments for our performances. The overall feel was positive according to steph. Shihui said something about us still not sounding sufficiently 'together'... I can't remember the rest. But it was very sweet of her to have said that she would look out for sop twos. The security guard was such an angel, really! He tolerated our noise and didn't even scold or warn us. That aided our celebration and eased the er, venue problem. We treated him to a piece of pei en's birthday cake. marie was the mummy for the night. Thank you my dears for your flowers and chocolates! :D Thank you Sheena and Gracia for your flower! (:(: Sorry for letting you wait. I saw both of them first when I came onto the stage. my goodness, i am switching the pronouns frivolously around. hmph!

I am exhausted. PICTURES tomorrow.

They call it the "hana effect". (:

Let the pictures speak for themselves. :D Birthday celebrations! yes and I realise we didn't take photos on jiejun's birthday celebration.



Bliss. ((:




Imitating weiling's contorted smile


This is very sweet. ;)


Shihui looks as delicious as the cake.








"uh huh! Here I come!"


our masterpiece!



kenny as usual!

too cranky for your own good. ;) I stepped out of my place in a dark brown top and black pants, yes, in defiance! I am fine now. I can't wait for tommorow, really. Hmm. ((: My dear friend wanted me to put this clip on my blog.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0A3Q5PtsRU

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alright, suddenly I have this whole ummm.. stuff to say... I am not getting truculent or anywhere near there. It is this sudden revelation that whatever I have been trying to deny subconciously could be genuine. It is the messages we are sending out by our body language?Perhaps we are really seen as unfriendly people who plan to stick together and not mix around... and what we basically only gossip and bitch... we talk behind people's backs... blah. I don't think we do, in a sense, it is always neutralised ultimately. We have people who are more pessismistic, otherwise optimistic-whichever stand we are inclined to, we always push one another forward... I think that is the most important. we don't particularly hate/dislike anyone, i promise. I feel bad and a bit hurt... I just hope every time it will get better and better. It does in a way, but somehow, I have this nagging feeling that the divisions are also getting clearer and clearer. =X Maybe I should stop thinking about it, when you put too much thought into something, it might just backfire.


I personally think vj choir and people(supporters included especially) are really pretty AA. ;) I can imagine people plotting to send hate mails to us, if they can find someone to send to or if there is a choral forum, we will sure be blacklisted in a thread that goes like, "Cocky and insensitive choir thinks it is TOP OF THE WORLD". gosh, we were so irritating. ;) haha. Giving a standing ovation for your own choir... I am not sure but I think I caught a glimpse of Nelson's expression. His eyes told me, "what the heck you all think you are doing..." It was during this teeny-weeny period of like maybe, ten seconds? heh. I am rather sensitive to nuances of tones and facial expressions. Applauding extremely long when we were announced the recipients of Gold with honours, again, the judges and emcee kept straight faces. ("straight faces" here meaning, they were trying to contain their displeasure.) sigh. I am sure I am also one of those "irritating people", maybe because we were really worried, moved by the japanese song, or maybe we just acted without thinking, but based on our feelings... I feel like apologizing but to who? (like which non vj-choir people reads this!) The moment Isank back into my chair after clapping, I thought we shouldn't have done that... and when the applause at the annoucement of results got a bit too long for comfort, I looked around and was like, '"shucks, they are still clapping.." and I could sense, outside our bubble world of elation, there was this awkward tension! I am serious! haha. yes. why am I bringing this up... Besides of course, jubilation and relief, there were moments where I felt that our behaviour were rather abominable... very subtle and fleeting moments, but they were there and I can't help but to confront them. We might think this is our prerogative to do so, we have a right to be happy... NOT when it is infringing on others', I believe. I mean, do you see other GWH supporters/choir being as zealous as we are? We could still insist that we don't really care about what people think about us, but do we not? Humans are the most contradictory creatures in the universe. I think we should learn to be humble and keep in our minds the image we are projecting to other choirs because besides competing, we are all doing this no matter which brands you endorse, for the love of choral singing and the chance to be able to touch your listeners. yep, and we aren't really that invincible either. (: (: I feel like an old lady again... hahaha. well, CONGRATS, JUNIORS!!! I am very proud, yes, irritatingly proud.



petit ami de Marie est Xuan. Ils sont toujours ensemble. Elle aime beaucoup son ami! :D

oh well, the former abused me verbally and the latter abused me physically. (he used a file to hit me! tsk. tsk.) :p


goodnight world.

crazylillove-ride
Originally uploaded by siying;lala.

Just because among the clouds... we found one another. (: